Friday, June 24, 2016


It is not easy for me to "own" my story and share it, but I do not want one person to feel alone or ashamed about their depression.  I have struggled on and off with depression for most of my adult life.  It wasn't until recently that I realized that a number of my dear friends have struggled with depression at some point in their life as well.

My first diagnosis came right after college.  Since then, I have been on some form of medication.  I have seasons that I try to go without it, but usually that dark cloud seems to find its way back to me.

My depression is not circumstantial.  I have a loving husband, two beautiful children, great family on both Clint and my side and the sweetest friends a girl could ask for.  We have a beautiful home and live a good life.  It is just that every once in a while, a season will come upon me that makes it almost painful to get out of bed.  I just want to go back to sleep and not wake up for hours.  My mind says, "You are not needed today......the world will go on just fine without you."  But, I drag myself out of bed, put one foot in front of the other and go about my day.  Usually, If I can get out the door, I perk up and I am fine for the day.  Most people are shocked to hear that I struggle with depression, as I have a fairly happy personality.  At my worst, I just stay in.  I cancel plans.  I "lay low".  I do my very best to keep my girls happy and entertained.  It is not hard to love them or Clint when I am depressed, but it is hard to love the world and get out in it.

I often struggle with the fact that I am a strong Christian and I still struggle with depression.  I pray every day.....I have a quiet time of a devotional and music most mornings.......I read my bible a few times per week.  So why, do I continue to struggle with depression?  I do not know why the Lord has not taken it from me.  Lord knows, I have prayed.  I just think that it is part of my story, it is part of my life and life is not perfect on this side of heaven.

What I can tell you is that:
Medication helps.............It is not for everyone, but I don't know that I would be here today if it weren't for the different medications that I have taken over the last twenty years.
Therapy helps.............We could buy a lot with the money I have spent on therapy, but it is worth it.
Support helps...............I have family and friends that walk through this battle with me.  They love me through it.
God helps................I know for sure that I would not be alive today without the love of Christ.  I have hit some lows in my life and the only thing that has picked me up off the floor is knowing that I have a Creator and someday, I will be in Heaven with Him.

Depression per the Anxiety and Depression Society:
Depression is a condition in which a person feels discouraged, sad, hopeless, unmotivated, or disinterested in life in general. When these feelings last for a short period of time, it may be a case of "the blues."  But when such feelings last for more than two weeks and when the feelings interfere with daily activities such as taking care of family, spending time with friends, or going to work or school, it's likely a major depressive episode.
Below are some depression statistics from National Institute of Mental Health:
An estimated 16 million American adults—almost 7% of the population—had at least 1 major depressive episode last year. People of all ages and all racial, ethnic and socioeconomic backgrounds can experience depression, but it does affect some groups of people more than others. Women are 70% more likely than men to experience depression, and young adults aged 18–25 are 60% more likely to have depression than people aged 50 or older. 
If you need more information, I would be happy to talk to you, talk to your doctor or visit this website:

Friday Favorites

We had a good week.  

Celebrating our sweet daddy on Father's Day.   He loves our girls so well.
One of Clint's gifts was an air mattress for when we go camping.   The girls slept on it in their playroom two nights in a row. 

Moviehouse Eatery

Picnic in woods behind our house!

New ballet costume from a sweet friend.

Lots of swimming!

I've lost nine pounds so far on my health kick!

Fun birthday party with friends.

Library time.......we checked out way too many books.

Headed for Winter Park, CO

Olivia colored, stickers, ate, played and slept on a two hour flight!   She is my busy girl.

Monday, June 20, 2016

Ava Graduated Kindergarten

Ava graduated kindergarten this week.  We could not be more proud of this girl.  She has worked so hard.  She has a good attitude.  Although most days, her choice would have been to stay home and play, she went to school and worked hard.  The things I was most impressed with was her reading and writing skills.  I am just in awe that she can pick up a book and read it to me.  It makes my heart so happy and proud to listen to her read.  I also love to read the stories that she writes for me.  She staples together little books.

When she got her diploma, her teacher's comment was that she was very kind to others and had a great attitude.  That is our girl!  She is a kind little soul.

A few little things I want to remember:
- We dropped her off in the mornings and she rode the bus home.  I didn't want her to ride the bus, but she thought it looked so fun.  It turned out to be nice to just walk to our cut de sac and pick her up.
- She brought her lunch to school every day except Friday.  She bought her lunch and a treat every Friday.  Her favorite day was nacho day.
- Her teacher was Mrs. Cadorette
- Her favorite subject was art.  No surprise here.  The girl works on art at home every single day.  She makes me a picture with paints, pens, markers or crayons every day.
- Her second favorite subject was music.
- Her favorite academic subject was writing.
- She was friends with all the kids in her class.
- She liked to dress up
- She made me or Clint pictures during her free time most days
- She enjoyed recess and usually played with the same little girls
- Her reading really took off after Christmas break
- It took her and me several months to adjust to the early mornings
- She just wanted to play when she got home from school
- Her after school activity was gymnastics

Thursday, June 9, 2016

Friday Favorites

Summer has begun.   This was our first week of no school and we are so happy about it!

We played at home.   Olivia performed a surgery on her bear.   She wants to be a doctor when she grows up.

The girls got summer buckets on the last day of school.

Clint was off, so we went in to Austin to Whole Foods and walk Towne Lake.

We went to the park.

We did science experiments.

Ava got her birthday gift early.   They love it!   Hours of fun.

We saw a movie at a cool theatre that serves food in recliners.

We love summer break!!

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